pain

  • Screams & Chants

    Screams & Chants

    I can neither perfect nor dress this feeling with language,
    Forgive me for speaking out loud.

    I screamed in the cave of loneliness,
    And heard the echoes of God repeating,
    Screams of pain are chants for joy.

    I am the nameless child,
    I can only listen to silence,
    I look in the mirror,
    And I see,
    A power using its five senses,
    To absorb more of this world.

    I breathe all.

    I am the nameless child,
    I am the painful truth,
    And now I give you I.

    Filed under: 🜃 Infinite – exploring the unseen forces behind creation, truth, and existence.

  • Footprints Erased

    Footprints Erased

    Memories like candles.
    They burn,
    cry hot wax tears,
    then leave a monument.
    All while shining a light,
    on what you choose
    and how you choose,
    to see.

    I can count many tales
    on my hand,
    and many wounds
    on my arms.
    I lay every night
    on a pillow
    of flame and tears.

    I drown inside my head and
    break into pieces of kintsugi
    inside my heart.

    I try to explain,
    but no one listens.
    Born mute,
    learned to speak.
    Born different,
    learned to fit in.
    Born to be me,
    and I learned to be you.
    I can explain,
    But who’s listening?

    Wrongly labeled
    and wrongly judged.
    Back of a hand on lips.
    A sword cuts through my lungs.
    Thoughts hanged.
    Innocence raped.
    Natural gifts shot.
    And all buried.
    No ceremony,
    and no farewell.
    No time to grieve,
    and no time to adapt.
    I’m ok.

    Here’s a mask,
    put it on.
    I am told.
    You are sin.
    Yes I am sin.
    Hide your soul.

    I can count many tales
    on my hand.
    I rest my head,
    on pillow of fire.
    And I drown
    in the waters of my thoughts.
    I love,
    and I hurt.

    Forgive me.
    Footprints erased.

    Filed under: 🜁 Self – tracing the inner landscapes of thought, feeling, and becoming.