regret

  • I Visit

    I Visit

    I visit
    A domain within me;
    Just mind,
    No walls or doors.
    Painted by time and
    Emotion are landscapes of memory.

    I visit,
    I visit always,
    Every reason but none in particular.
    Sometimes I go to cry.
    Tears on fields of regret fall
    Watering seeds of ‘what-ifs’
    that never seem to bloom,‌
    But always present to visit

    I visit.
    A roundabout of the mind
    I turn and turn around
    Different horses but the same journey
    I start and finish in the same place

    I visit.
    Sometimes I visit stars
    Of missed chances to make my wishes
    Sometimes I visit to thank
    Ghosts of days gone by

    I visit.
    This familiar cage,
    Which will never let me go.
    I carry this place around
    Even there on bright days are its shadows.

    I visit
    Here as a captain and crewman,
    Difficult journey through stormy thoughts,
    However much I try to find a way back home
    But am caught up by drifting currents.

    I visit
    When I’m lost
    In the maze of the present tense.
    Sometimes I visit
    Hoping yesterday will soon
    Become today.

    Repeating the same thing
    But expecting different outcomes
    It is a memory of visiting
    I often do.

    I visit.
    I always visit.
    For in visiting, I am,
    Both lost and found again.

    Filed under: 🜁 Self – tracing the inner landscapes of thought, feeling, and becoming.